6.3 | Restoring the Witness in the Age of Organized Evil

Welcome to an episode of the Waking Up Wealthy podcast that I never expected to record. I’m talking today about the Epstein files and specifically about psychological and somatic sovereignty. I’m going to share why this is so central in the construction and the return to matriarchal systems and how to maintain what can be called, quote, unquote, political capacity during experiences of political stress. Of course, I’ll share my own experiences on moving through this process and through rage as a, as someone who can tune into the collective, who is telepathic to the collective, someone who’s a survivor, as a former psychologist and somatic practitioner, and as a parent of kids who are the ages of many of the people, many of the victims and survivors, in hopes that it’ll help be helpful to you in some way. This is about being resourced for what is happening right now, for this revolution, for this return, by knowing how to navigate your internal landscape through trauma, to find resilience, to find that ground. And if you listen to the first episode of the season, I talked about all the different types of sovereignty. If you didn’t listen to that episode, it might be helpful to go back and listen to that one first so that you can get a big picture understanding of the concept of sovereignty, specifically from a trauma, informed, somatic perspective. But if you don’t, you’ll still get a lot out of this episode. So the Epstein files are out and already you can see the discourse shifting, right? There’s some that is, you know, accountability about, like, let’s go to this. But there’s another discord that is a. That feels like it’s going toward resignation. And in this discord, you will hear things like, it’s a psyop. They’re testing us. Nothing’s going to happen anyway, right? And what they’re talking about is how the Epstein files, how the content is being dripped. There was a drip, drip, drip, and then the. A big dump. And this was a couple of days ago, maybe like a week ago, and then there was another big dump today. And so maybe that’s true. I don’t doubt it at all. With everything that I have been learning, that I have been exploring over the last, I don’t know, what, 10 years plus. And then over the last month, more deeply, I don’t doubt that at all. But here’s what I want to name. That framing that it’s a psyop, that we’re being tested, however sophisticated as that sounds, can become its own form of collapse. Because the moment we intellectualize our way out of feeling, the moment we trade rage for a clever theory about why rage is useless, we’ve done exactly what systems of power require us to do. We have managed ourselves, and we’ve managed ourselves on their behalf because it’s very inconvenient for them to have a populace that is enraged, that feels highly protective of its most vulnerable, you know, population or group. And psychological sovereignty is the, refusal to let the system decide how to process your response to the system. It’s the capacity to feel what is real without the news cycle telling you what to feel and when to feel it. It’s about having the capacity to hold your own truth and clarity and decision making without that external manipulation of the story. It’s about having the capacity to process the material without despair or cynicism, arriving early to shut it down before it becomes dangerous to those in power. And in this context specifically, it’s the ability to look at what the Epstein files represent in themselves, but as part of this bigger network. Because I believe that there is a much bigger, and probably it’s hard to believe, but much more evil network of organized, protected predation at the highest levels, and to stay in that information, that soup of information, to stay in contact with your own bodily knowing. The Epstein network, by itself and as part of this bigger network, whatever its full scope, operates through mechanisms that mirror, on a societal level the same dynamics that occur that operate rather on individual trauma survivors, right? It. It relies on dissociation, disbelief, and the collapse of the Witness function and the. The conditioning to doubt or disconnect from what you actually know. And I want to focus on the collapse of the Witness because that is a really fucking big deal. The collapse of the Witness is when you lose the internal part of yourself that can see clearly and say, this is happening. This is actually happening, without flinching away from it, without distorting it to make it bearable, and with. And without being so overwhelmed that you drown in it. So the Witness is the part that knows. And in, I think, Clarissa Pincola Estez is part of her, women who run with the wolves. She called it la quesave. It’s the intuition paired with self belief and self trust. And that collapse happens in four distinctive ways. The first is denial. The witness goes offline entirely. Like, you can’t let yourself know what you know because the implications are too threatening. Of course, this happens on the smallest scale and on large scale. On the smallest scale. On the personal, developmental level, it happens when, you know, we can’t possibly believe that our parents might have done the things that they did on purpose. Or, you know, we can’t think of our parents as having, traumatized us because then it means that, you know, they’re bad. And from the child’s perspective, we don’t do that. We can’t possibly believe that the people that are, there to care for us, to love us, are bad. That’s why we make ourselves bad. The implications of our parents being harmful is too threatening. So we make ourselves the source or the reason for the harm. Right? So this is something common that happens a very small scale, but it happens on the bigger, big T trauma scale. Dissociation is. That’s number. Dissociation is number two. You see it, but so, but from so far away, it doesn’t feel real. It’s happening to other people. So it doesn’t touch you on an emotional level. It doesn’t. It. You may feel it sort of on the surface, but not very deep. And I could tell, like this has happened to me many, many times. It happens again on, on a continuum. right. Like, I have moments where, you know, the natural disaster hits another country. I will feel it, but I don’t feel it all the way. Like I’m super connected. Right. So it’s kind of like it, it’s happening somewhere else. I am not experiencing it firsthand, so it doesn’t quite get to me in the same way. The information registers, but it doesn’t fully land. And you know, you can process something intellectually, right? Like, like, like Palestine. Like, you know. Yeah. Just anything that happens anywhere else in the world, let’s say, because that’s an easy one. Or even between, you know, when people of color are harmed, right. Blm. We white people, right. White bodied folks can sort of see what’s happening. They can process it intellectually, they can say it’s wrong, they can name all the reasons, but somehow the heart stays numb. It doesn’t quite land. Number three is overwhelm. The witness gets flooded. There’s too much, it’s too big and the capacity to see clearly drowns in the sheer volume. And this is specifically what. What I believe is happening. So this is what that last big drop of information served to create. And then the number four, the fourth way that collapse of the Witness happens is cynicism. And this is the most subtle one. This is the one I really want to name here. The witness is still technically online, but it’s been retrofitted into a clever protective defense. And this defense says, of course this happened. Everything is corrupt. Nothing is surprising. Like this doesn’t surprise me at all. It looks like clear eyed seeing, but it’s actually a way out of. A way out of not fully feeling the full magnitude and the implications of what you’re seeing. You’re seeing it. You can maybe feel disgust by it, right? Just kind of like, ugh, of course, of course billionaires are dickheads, right? But you don’t feel the full extent. And the entire information environment we’re in, from social media to news, everything, files themselves, is essentially a pressure on the witness to look away, to go numb, to be overwhelmed, or to retreat into a knowing that’s so detached that it doesn’t really require emotional, internal, emotional labor. It doesn’t really require anything of you. And that’s why, the message that I want to get across in this episode is that keeping the Witness intact is. Is an act of resistance. When the files land and people immediately reach for. It’s a psyop, or nothing will change or, of course, or go silent. That isn’t just pessimism. That is a recognizable trauma response playing out at a collective scale. It’s the freeze. It’s the freeze response. It’s the fawn. It’s the part of the nervous system that has learned that knowing too much is dangerous, rage is futile, and the powerful are untouchable. Right? So this is something, of course, that we learn just by existing in this power structure. Because the power structures in the bigger collective systems exist on an individual level in our family systems, right? Because our parents are powerful. And if our parents are, you know, the top down authoritarian type parent, we also learn that knowing too much is dangerous, that getting mad, raging, having a tantrum goes nowhere. And so we collapse, right? This happens with a lot of children. We watch it maybe with our own children. And this is a form of learned helplessness. So Martin Seligman is the pioneer of this specific learned helplessness research. And his original research showed that when organisms are repeatedly exposed to harm that they can’t control or escape, they eventually Stop trying even when the escape becomes possible. So this particular, the experiment that I’m thinking about in my head, there were many different ones. But, the popular one is this dog that was in a cage. And the floor that the dog was laying on was emitting electric shocks. And so the dog, no matter where he went in the, in the cage, it couldn’t escape it. So eventually, the dog, seeing that they could not escape the. The shocks, they just eventually, like, lie down on the floor because they had nowhere else to go, and they just got numb to the shocks. And even when they opened up the cage later, once this conditioning had been put into place or solidified in the, in the organism in the dog, the dog didn’t try to escape. So what happens here is that the organism, the dog, the human, doesn’t give up tactically. It gives up at the level of perception. And what that means is that it stops accurately reading the environment for opportunities. Because the nervous system has learned that reading the environment leads to nowhere. So it’s not just, I’m not going to try or I won’t try, it’s I won’t see clearly. Because seeing clearly is associated with pain that has no outlet. It’s associated with knowing things that changed nothing and with feeling things that only hurt if you don’t have the agency to change it. And this is exactly the environment that systemic protected abuse creates over time, right? Many women, including myself, have been holding things, knowing things, and knowing things, Having the wisdom hasn’t really changed anything on the systemic level. And so there are parts of my body and parts of other women’s bodies that hold that to be true. So it’s like kind of like we have parts of our somatic bodies that are, that have learned to not see that there are actual routes of escape. Okay? So every exposure to evidence that went nowhere, right? Every powerful person who faced no consequences, and we’ve had. We’re currently in that environment, and we’ve been seeing that so much, right? Every rape, survivor or sexual assault survivor whose perpetrator faced no consequences, every investigation that got stalled or every whistleblower who was discredited or killed or punished trained a collective nervous system to associate witness with futility. Okay? So the witness starts collapsing preemptively. It becomes protective, meaning good for the body, right? Because the nervous system is like, oh, let’s protect, let’s protect ourselves. So it becomes protective to not see, to not feel and to reach for cynicism or conspiracy or numbness before the full weight of the thing lands it’s kind of like, you know, when I used to work with clients, I would. We would be getting into the rage because rage is very activating. And when I saw a body that was turned off or under activated, I was like, well, let’s activate some rage. And they would start going there, and then they would cut themselves off, and then they would say something that was similar to this collapse of the witness so that they wouldn’t feel the full weight of the thing landing in their body. And so despair and cynicism, those are not neutral things. They feel like realism, but they function as compliance. A person who is in despair does not organize, does not speak, does not demand. Right. They don’t have their full power. And despair is supremely convenient for those who would prefer to not be held accountable. The same is true of the quote unquote, nothing is real. Everything is theater stance. It’s a sophisticated sounding form of learned helplessness and information warfare. Right. This, if this dripping of content and then these, these two big dumps, right, Let you know, this is where we are right now. We’re at the two big dumps. Potentially more are coming. This targets the nervous system, right? Obviously, this is what we’re talking about, the nervous system here, not just the mind. And this is the deeper point about psyops. The goal is not primarily to make you believe false things. It’s to dysregulate you, to flood you with so much information that you can’t orient. Right. To make you oscillate between outrage and numbness. Kind of like a. Almost like a. I’m thinking of a ping pong ball, but that isn’t fast enough. Yeah, so you’re oscillating so quickly through different emotions until you’re too exhausted to be able to act in a way that’s coherent. And the, the particularly insidious part is that learned helplessness doesn’t feel like giving up. So it’s like our brains are, are very ingenious at making it sound powerful because this is how our, our ego, our, our bodies maintain a sense of agency and power, even if it’s false agency. Okay, so this is, this is the important part. So it feels like realism, it feels like wisdom. It doesn’t feel like giving up. And I’ve been totally guilty of this defense, so I know what it’s like to live there. It feels like you’ve simply matured past naive outrage into a more sophisticated understanding of how power works. And, I think most recently, I think I posted something where I really I think it was in response to something that our current administration did. And I was just like, yep, this is narcissism. Like, whatever, you’re freaking out. Why are you freaking out? Like, this is. This is to be expected. That was my tone. That was my. And I can feel as I’m saying the words, I’m just like, oh, yeah, I feel the shutdown. I feel the collapse, right? That, that pretend sophistication, right? That false sophisticated understanding, that false, you know, wisdom or realism. It’s just scar tissue of feeling, repeated disappointment. And I know a lot of us feel disappointment, right? Scar tissue of repeated disappointment. I wanted to say that again because I want that to land for you because, honey, that goes deep. It’s so deep. The repeated disappointment. The repeated disappointment of people not being held accountable, of not being heard, of victim stories going nowhere, of people screaming into the void, of wanting folks in power, the people that supposedly represent us, to do something, but nothing happens. And because you already know about learned helplessness, you know that it persists even when the situation that created it has changed or when taking action might actually get. It might actually set you free. So again, thinking about that dog that doesn’t move from its lying down position on these electroshocks even when the cage door is open and they could easily just walk through it and not be shocked. And we are currently in one of those situations where it actually does matter because there’s actually a door right now. There’s a door. And taking action is going to set you free. It’s going to set all of us free. And how do I know this? I know it because I see it, because it’s been shown to me. And I don’t usually share things that are shown to me, but they have. And we are in a, we are in that like a, like a pivot point. I want to say we’re just in the. We’re in a collective awakening. And the actions that are taken are very, very, very important right now. And I just wrote a post, sent an email out two days ago about how the files expose the fact that the perversion, sadism and abuse of power is first and foremost wildly illegal. Right? Like we’ve been seeing this, right? The abuse of women and children, like we’ve been talking about it for such a long time. But the fact that we’re seeing people in sort of the upper echelons of society, seeing the m magnitude of it and seeing that there was manipulation of other political systems like that makes it super duper illegal. But it Also makes it global. It makes. It has economic implications, it has political implications about elections and obviously social. And then the other piece where it freaking matters is also that it’s highly well documented. So well documented. And women are. I’m thinking about, you know, women in. As a collective are seeing men in their own words, and we are being privy to conversations that we haven’t been allowed to see before. So the highly well documented piece makes it a completely different situation than one we’ve ever been in before. And that’s why restoring the Witness right now isn’t just psychological work. It’s the prerequisite for. For any political agency at all. So this is super duper important. So how do we restore the Witness? How do we get that dog in the middle of the cage to move out the door and get itself free, Right? In other words, how do we maintain political agency and capacity? Okay, so we stay in the body. Stay in the body. We feel the visceral wrongness that is a form of witness. It honors what actually happened and what is happening. And for me, feeling that visceral wrongness is connected to rage, because rage is a boundary signal. It’s protective. It is an activation of the collapse. And it’s important for building the matriarchy or returning to matriarchy, because matriarchal systems, or more precisely, to be more specific, systems organized around feminine principles of power. They are fundamentally rooted in the body as a site of truth, authority, and governance. And please understand that when I say feminine principles, I just mean principles of nature. I actually don’t really like that word and don’t even know why I wrote it in here. But the principles of nature that are connected to power are fundamentally rooted in the body as a site of truth, authority, and governance. Right? So patriarchal systems, abstract power upward into law, doctrine, hierarchy, institution, text, and in the body. That’s the head, the intellect. So patriarchy is neck up, right? And matriarchy is neck down. So authority lives outside the body and above it, or from the neck into the head and above the body, especially the femme. Body becomes something to be managed, legislated, owned, transcended, spiritually or otherwise, or shut the fuck down. Rage in this system is either weaponized from the top down, right? Such as, using repression in the form of military intervention, or it’s suppressed at the bottom, right? Which is in the conditioning of our bodies to be obedient to the state and to whatever indoctrination it is not ever allowed to be sovereign. And this happens again. It happens in our Families rage in the, let’s say in the ecological or in the natural sense is not violence. It’s Kali, it’s Sekhmet, it’s Lilith, it’s the Furies. It’s the force that comes up when something sacred has been violated and the organism, whether it’s individual or collective, mobilizes to restore the boundary. Right. It’s kind of like, I don’t know, I see, like when dogs alert, bark, and they all kind of come together or, you know, when, you know, the, the, I don’t know, I’m having this image of a woman with a torch coming into the town and saying, hey, this just happened. And everybody just comes out and, and gathers around her. She tells the story, and they all go together to fix it, whatever needs to be fixed. So in these traditions, rage is understood as being holy. It’s information from the deepest layer of the self about what matters, what has been wronged, and what must not be tolerated. And patriarchal systems specifically target this. The suppression of feminine, again, feminine rage. It’s not incidental to the construction of the patriarchy. It is foundational to it. A woman or a human being who can feel their rage fully, move it through their body and act from it is ungovernable in the most literal sense. This person cannot be gaslit about what they know. They cannot be managed into compliance. They cannot be convinced that what was violated was acceptable. So the suppression of this rage, this embodied, fully held rage, and the construction of patriarchal control are the same project. It’s just viewed from different angles. Right. The return to matriarchal principles therefore requires the literal restoration of rage as a legitimate, moving, sovereign force in the body. Rage reorganizes a person, a community’s relationship to authority, right? It moves authority from, you know, from the locus of governance back inside the body, where matriarchal systems always understood it to belong. Right? From the outside and upward to the downward and inward. And knowing how to move rage through your body, how to return to a grounded state, is a direct counter to control and manipulation. You, you can’t be manipulated by information overload if you have a stable psychological floor to return to. And I want to say that’s. Floors sometimes feel shaky and during the most recent eclipse, I went through a portal, okay? I went through a portal where I felt so dysregulated that I felt like I was shaking on the inside. And the rage that got activated in me, I, I, I understand now, is having woken up a, part, the part of me that a collapsed Witness inside of myself. And it is a. It was a very young part of myself. I’ll say a little bit about that in a moment, but it was next level. It was like I was getting to know a part of myself that I had. I had put away a long time ago. And it felt like a fire burning inside of my body. It was not, not good inside my body. It didn’t feel good. It was good for me, but it felt like, oh my God, what the is this? There was no space for anything else in my body for about three days. It was just burning mad. And I realized a few days in. Right, I think, about like, I think it was longer than three days. But I realized on day three after sort of like just observing, having my witness observe what was happening and noticing that it wasn’t. I wasn’t shifting out of it. It was just kind of kept going and going. And I was like, I’m having, I’m having a trauma response. And during those three days or more, I was, I was having flashbacks, of movies where I had seen rapes happen. I was in mind loops. I was like, looping specific songs. yeah, replay movie scenes, songs, not so much events from my life, but yeah, I was seeing like my own kids in situations that had been. That I’d been reading about online. So that was very hard. And you know, and I started seeing like some of my past clients. a lot of people don’t know this, but I’ve worked with many clients who have been part of trafficking, rings and who have experienced ritualized, child sexual abuse. So that was there. And then I had my own experiences and this is where my witness was. So I grew up in the. In the late 70s and 80s, in my 50s now, early 50s. And I grew up with men’s. Grown old men’s eyes and hands trying to get to me. So I basically, it was. It was like an everyday experience for me to feel like there was someone in virgin my. In my environment at all times trying to get me. and I had an experience in camp. And again these were like, you know, survivor stories that were. That can be maybe categorized as like on the continuum, like, on the milder side of things. But it is still part of the spectrum. Right. at camp, taking a shower, being watched through and a hole in the wall and then being. Being met when I came out of the shower or even before. I’m not even sure anymore before I went to shower or after I went to shower. And being talked to and, and put on the lap of this, of this man who was watching me. And I went to, I went to the director of the camp because I’ve always been a little feminist. So I went to the director of the camp and told them exactly what happened. I was like, this was wrong. This happened and this person needs to be punished. And the response that I got was that this was the owner of the camp, this was the, the owner rather of the campground. And, nothing could be done because we had already signed the contract, we’re here. And they were kind of like, I don’t know what to do. And that was the part of me that woke up. Right? That part of me woke up. And I’m so grateful for her for having gotten the mad, because. Excuse me. I feel like I have more of myself now. I feel like I’m just so much clearer. but when I, when I’m just going back again, like when I was sort of watching myself and like noticing these experiences in my body, as soon as I clock that this was a trauma response, like, and as soon as I started having those mental loops of the flashbacks and music, I let my kids know so that they wouldn’t mistake this. I was very intense and very serious. I didn’t want them to mistake this, my, my resting B face for how I was feeling about them. I didn’t want them to personalize it. And so they were, yeah, yeah, it’s cool, it’s cool. And then when I came out of it, I’m just like, yeah, yeah. And I let them know what was happening. But how you move rage through your body is. It’s going to be different depending on how you process information and what your level of experience is with your own witness. And when I first started out, not so much on the psychological aspect of things, but moving energy through my body closer to when I, you know, began doing the somatic work. I needed to move my body in big ways because my, my being able to attune to my own sensation, I was very disconnected from it. So I had to make big movements. I had to hit a cube, I had to punch things, I had to scream. I had to like pull and you know, do very intense things so that I could like, feel the energy in my body. And now that I have like my, my spidey senses with my own internal stuff, I can engage in activities that, you know, that ground me. I can like walk or swim. I can function in my daily life while experiencing all of these feelings. And sensations. and I noticed at this time, like, this most recent time with like, next level deep, you know, waking up this, like, little. Little part of me that had little witness that had been collapsed. I needed to be in bed a lot. I needed to be, like, very sort of comfortable with, like, lots of warm clothes and soft clothing, quiet in my apartment, away from stimulation or over stimulation. Because I was. I felt very much at the edge of my capacity. Like, I just couldn’t, like, I was gonna, like, pop off on some, like, if I got breathed on wrong, you know, kind of thing. And, you know, there’s lots of ways to. To move energy, right? You don’t have to hit, scream, pound, punch, pull, unless you are sort of more at the beginning of the work and you have that. That rage is very suppressed. But people use breath work. They use humming, singing, writing, running, lifting weights, biking, swimming, so many different types. Lifting weights happens to be actually very unexpectedly powerful. but if you’re starting out, the point of entry is always the body, because the body is always already witnessing. The body never disassociates from itself. It just gets ignored. So that’s the good news. So you want to start below the level of meaning. You want to start, like, from the neck down. Like, forget interpretations, forget intellect, forget understanding, forget what do I think about this? Or even like, what do I feel about this? But what is actually just happening in your body right now? Like, is there. Is there tension in my chest right now? Is. Is my jaw clenched? Am I holding my breath? Oh, God, who. Is there a heaviness? Is there like a, is there like a flatness? Or is there like a bouncing in my body or restlessness? Like, I felt the shaking in my body and I just, like, what is that I’m feeling? It’s just shaking. Like, it’s just moving really, really fast. Energy was moving. So you’re not interpreting. You’re just making contact. You’re just noticing. And that contact, however small, is the beginning of witnessing. And it grows. The more you do it, it grows. So you’re practicing the capacity on something immediate and undeniable before you try to apply it to something bigger and. And more, like, intense. Right? So the titration really matters here. You don’t go straight to the thing that collapsed the witness in the first place unless it comes around and surprises you like it did me. And if it helps, like, have another person who can hold witness for you temporarily. This is what good therapy actually is, seeing the therapist witness stay intact while yours is offline. And through being accurately seen, you begin to see yourself. You begin to internalize that capacity. And that co regulation precedes self regulation. I needed that in order to get myself fully online. You can borrow a healthy nervous system, right? A capacitated, nervous system that knows how to stay present until yours remembers. And these somatic practices work because they make the body legible to itself. So breath work, movement, shaking, sound, aren’t just release valves. A lot of people think it’s just about releasing energy. No, they generate sensation that’s impossible to fully ignore and track sensation. Tracking sensation is the most basic form of witnessing available to any, any person. So you’re building the observing function from the ground up. And once it’s really well develop, you can just like whatever experience you’re having, you can just watch it happen, experience it, and watch it at the same time. And that alone that experience. Right. I’ve talked about it in other podcast episodes. That alone is, is the capacity that uncouples the trauma from what your body is holding, from the actual memory. So the Witness was never destroyed. It was protected by a system that learned that seeing clearly was too painful. Just wanted to reiterate that. So restoration is less about building something new and about slowly, more about making it safe to see again. Right. Making it safe enough. Which means that the work is fundamentally about self trust, about trusting that you can know what you know without being obliterated or annihilated by it, without dying. Because that’s what our ego fears, the nervous system. And that feeling won’t kill you. Right? It’s about staying present with difficult truth and just knowing that it’s survivable. Oh, okay, I went through that, okay? I didn’t die. I’m still here. And trust is rebuilt the same way. All trust is incrementally through small experiences of surviving the thing that you were afraid of. And this is about staying oriented to yourself. It allows us to remain the kind of people who can recognize harm and refuse to normalize it, refuse to excuse it, dismiss it, minimize it. And this matters precisely because powerful people count on our normalization. They count on. Right. Like, kind of like, yeah, yeah, this is this. Doesn’t it suck it. This happens. Outrage fatigue is not an accident. It’s a feature of the system, not a bug. So emotional sovereignty, psychological sovereignty, doesn’t mean staying perpetually activated because we will harm ourselves doing so. It means not outsourcing your nervous system response to the news cycle. Right. It means feeling what is real, letting it move through you and Coming out of the other side with clarity rather than explosion or shutdown. Those are not the only two options. And the psyop, if that’s what this is, works in one of two ways. It either activates you into frantic, unfocused energy that burns out really fast, or it convinces you that activation itself is naive. And both outcomes produce the same result. A population that does not act from a grounded embodied place. And the antidote to both is the same. Feel it, move it. Don’t let it calcify into despair or have it dissipate into some sort of clever, I don’t know trope. And of course, it’s not about performing outrage on social media. It’s not doom scrolling. It’s like it’s a private. It’s a private physical act of not abandoning yourself in the face of something that deserves your full response. The children in those files deserved adults who stayed awake, who didn’t look away, who didn’t decide that looking was too painful or too pointless. The least we can do now is refuse to go numb. Yeah. One. One reason systemic abuse persists is that the truth is generally hard to hold. It implicates powerful people. It requires sitting with the reality that institutions failed catastrophically. And it means accepting that the world contains levels of organized predation that most people would prefer to believe doesn’t exist. Yeah. So the point is. The deeper point is that psychological and somatic sovereignty are not self help concepts in this context. They are political capacities. They are preconditions for any meaningful collective response. And the invitation is into collective response. Because this is, this is a specific moment in history. This is a very important moment in history. And in this specific moment, the question of whether women especially can stay embodied and rageful rather than collapsing into numbness or cynicism. It’s not just psychological, it’s civilizational. Yeah. It’s about whether the systems of knowing that patriarchy most needed to destroy can be recovered enough to actually respond to what is being revealed. Thank you for listening and I welcome your comments, your thoughts, your feedback. Very curious about that. I felt compelled to share. It’s a little bit different from what I usually share, but it needed to be said. As a big ass mama bear, I love you. Until next time, thank you for listening to today’s episode. Remember to hit the subscribe button to get notified of new episodes dropping on the new and full moons of each month. And if you haven’t already, leave us a five star review on itunes to make sure that everyone who needs this transmission receives it until the next episode. I’m sending you fierce, fierce love.